The Wonderful World of Me

4:01PM - I kept thinking about this song all day...

VITAMIN C LYRICS

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

10:28PM

10:55PM

Craziest Super Tuesday ever....

5:06PM

 Heath Ledger died today...

Current mood: sad

10:49PM

Jamie-Lynn Spears, Britney's 16 year-old sister, is pregnant. Yeah, pregnant, and she's keeping the baby.

What is wrong with America? There are wonderful new inventions called 'birth control' and 'condoms.'

Current mood: confused

5:50PM

WATCH!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uA1z_cMZslc

11:02AM - -screams-

BEST YELLOWCARD CONCERT EVER!

Sure, they weren't headlining, which is crap, but who got to get their pictures taken with them? CHRISTINE, ASHLEY AND ME!

I don't think that'll ever truly hit me that I got to meet my favorite band.

Craziness.

Current mood: bouncy

Current music: "Light Up The Sky" -Yellowcard

10:46PM - Done

I'm done, just completely done with this all. I want to graduate and get the hell out of here.

I'm just so TIRED of all of the drama in my house right now, it's just too much for me right now. I can't believe that my mom is divorcing her 5th husband after being married for 8 months and is back with the previous husband, Rhyse, who is living with us now. How crazy is that? I'm not comfortable having him around at all. Sure, he's different since the divorce 3 years ago, but it still doesn't eliminate the 9 years that I lived with him before the divorce. I just won't get used to it. I avoid him at all costs in the house and I despise every time that I run into him. And now to make things worse, my mom said that we're running out of money fast and only have like 2 months worth of money because she's just not making enough income to keep up. So guess where we're going to move soon? Rhyse's house. How awkward will that be. That's not my house anymore. Sure, I lived there for 5 years, but I didn't live there for 3 and it's totally different now. It'll just be so freaking weird and I'll probably try to spend the night at friends' houses as much as possible. So heads up everyone!

I can't handle all of this right now, I'm having WAY too many problems with myself mentally and physically. I'm being forced to grow up too quickly too. As if I wasn't forced already because I grew up with a little brother that took up all of my mom's time and still does, I now am pushed to wanting to leave this house so badly that I would be willing to go out and live on my own right now if I could afford it. I want that so badly, but I'm trapped here, and that's exactly what it feels like. I feel like I'm here against my will. I don't think that's how I should feel. I love my mom so much, don't get me wrong, but I'm tired of her decisions affecting me so much.

I'm ready to grow up; graduation isn't coming fast enough.

Current mood: pissed off

Current music: "Broken" Seether and Amy Lee

10:00PM

 You know when you stumble upon something from a long time ago that you weren't looking for and it brings back all sorts of old emotions and regrets and makes you want to go back to that time?

Yeah, that's me right now.

Current mood: indescribable

Current music: "Not Ready to Make Nice" -Dixie Chicks

10:28PM - Awesome Song

"Dear Mr. President"
-Pink

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

Current mood: complacent

2:36PM - Schedule

1st Semester
1. Release
2. (continued release)
3. Possibly Advanced Studies (haven't fully decided yet)
4. Lunch
5. Entrepreneurship
6. Band
7. Ac lab (with Mrs. Chavez!)
8. AP Literature/Composition
9. Lunch
10. Honors Spanish 9-10

2nd Semester
1. Release
2. (continued release)
3. Possibly Advanced Studies (haven't fully decided yet)
4. Lunch
5. US/AZ Government
6. Band
7. Ac lab (with Mrs. Chavez!)
8. AP Literature/Composition
9. Lunch
10. Honors Spanish 9-10

It's not really what I originally wanted. I talked about it with Mr. Scott for a while this morning and agreed that this was basically the only way it would work. He recommended keeping AP Lit instead of Creative Writing to help my rank since I have a release. I know that rank isn't everything, but I still want to stay in the top 10%, and last time I checked I was in the top 8%, so I might as well be conscious of that. We talked about Advanced Studies too since there is much offered during 3rd period that I want to take. I thought about Advanced Studies last year actually, but turned down the idea since I wanted to relax a bit. But since I don't have Creative Writing anymore, I can make my project writing related. Plus, it's another honors credit to help my rank. I'm not officially in marching band anymore either because of the problems I'm having with my feet, amongst other problems. But Werner wants me to stay in the period for Wind Ensemble since things are changing this year.

So... what do you think? Right decision?

Current mood: contemplative

Current music: "Without Love" -Hairspray

12:24AM

Just finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows....

It's actually over....

Current mood: flabergasted

12:18PM

The new Harry Potter movie... disappointing, yet worth seeing.

If you have read the book: Have no expectations and do not think about the book at all while watching it.

If you have not read the book: Prepare to be confused and read the book after you see the movie.

Current mood: disappointed

Current music: Harry Potter theme

11:48PM - These are always fun...

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. If you want to be even more interesting, make this into a play list or burn this to a CD.

OPENING CREDITS: "Sure Thing Falling" -Yellowcard
WAKING UP: "When You've Got It, Flaunt It" -The Producers
FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL: "A Sentimental Man" -Wicked
FALLING IN LOVE: "Somebody Told Me" -The Killers (hahahahahahaha)
FIGHTING: "Vienna" -The Fray
BREAKING UP: "Hot" -Avril Lavigne
PROM: "Life After Death and Taxes" -Relient K
LIFE'S OK: "Through With You" -Maroon 5
MENTAL BREAKDOWN: "An Honest Mistake" -The Bravery (Finally! One that fits!)
DRIVING: "San Francisco" -Vanessa Carlton
FLASHBACK: "Frightened" -Toby Lightman
GETTING BACK TOGETHER: "I'm A Fake" -The Used
WEDDING: "La Vie Boheme" -Rent (YEAH!) 
BIRTH OF CHILD: "Forgotten" -Avril Lavigne (WTF?)
FINAL BATTLE: "You Okay Honey?" -Rent
DEATH SCENE: "The Best Damn Thing" -Avril Lavigne
FUNERAL: "Landing In London" -3 Doors Down
END CREDITS: "Really Might Be Gone" -Bowling For Soup
Title of Movie: "Soul" -Matchbox Twenty

Um.... right....

12:29AM

I thought that I would bring this back just for shits and giggles.

Create an Anonymous comment with:

One secret.
One compliment.
One complaint.
Lyrics to a song that remind you of me.
How old you are.
How long we've been friends. 


Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!

Current mood: tired

12:29PM

DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6:09PM

The last time that I have to worry about Chemistry and it's the worst time to not understand it!!!!

I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:11PM

So I decided that I'm going to attempt to write another book. The first one fell through after 14 pages because it became too commercial and was nothing but the typical teen fiction novel. It would not be published. This one will be different.

It's going to be strictly autobiographical (don't worry, I'll change your name if I use you) and about my battle with depression. I figured out that it's going to be my therapy, and hopefully working on it all this summer and next year will have me cured by graduation.



Hopefully my insomnia will go away sooner...

Current mood: optimistic

9:00PM

GAH!

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm still getting more antisocial by the day and I don't know why. I'm really getting tired of not following through when it comes to plans that I make. But for some reason, I just fall apart whenever I'm supposed to be doing something else.

I don't know what to do.

8:04PM

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GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I have never been this frustrated with homework.